XIII admission/confession

A while back i did something horrible.... it wasn't on purpouse.... no.... something like this is never not purpousful... that was just a pitiful excuse.... i knew what i was doing, and it was a horrible mistake. i wish i could go back in time and undo that horrible action. it's hard for me to write this, because i want to forget it all.... but forgeting is hard, and something like this shouldn't be forgoten. it should stay with me forever. forever reminding me of how horrible i was at that time, and that i should never attempt anything like that ever again. the horrible deed that i had committed was cheating. i had cheated on my girlfriend after 9 months of being together. it was a horrible mistake. the whole reason for me cheating was because of the way she treated me. i was treated like a dog... even after all the time i sacrificed so many things for her. she was abusive most of the time, and i hate to admit it... at times i was afraid to go to her house. i slowly, over time, started wondering if she truly loved me or not, and if i loved her still. but that day of cheating, i realized that i still loved her. even through all the things that were bad i still loved her. she had already known what had happened a few hours after, and we were seperated for a few weeks... luckily for me that horrible deed i had done had made us closer somehow. she started going to therapy and it's working. she's alot less violent than she used to be, and she's doing her best to treat me better. i still do everything i can for her, and try my best to make her happy, just like i did before. now our relationship is improving alot, and we also have a child on the way. we love eachother more than we ever had before, and i'm talking to her about my promlems now, unlike before. that was biggest reason it all happened. instead of talking and telling her what was wrong, i kept everything bottled up and later had a meltdown. now i know what i should've done, and i wll never make that mistake ever again. we love eachother, and we will be together forever!