baby

i went to the doctor yesterday with my girlfriend. we heard the baby's heart beat for the first time. we're so excited!!!!! just 6 more months until jackie's born!!!!!!

Jackie Morgan Boyt

i can't wait!!! we'll know if our baby will be a boy or girl in january!!! we of course will be naming our child Jackie Morgan Boyt. we're both so excited to have our first child. we're having some issues with money at the moment, but it'll all work out.

music

i've been looking up alot of music lately from the 70's and 80's and i happened upon a good band called metallica. i've heard of them before, but i never listened to them before. of course i listened to them, loved them. also the scorpions was good. i found so many good bands, such as led zeppelin, def leopard, twisted sister, ect. i love them all!!!

XIII admission/confession

A while back i did something horrible.... it wasn't on purpouse.... no.... something like this is never not purpousful... that was just a pitiful excuse.... i knew what i was doing, and it was a horrible mistake. i wish i could go back in time and undo that horrible action. it's hard for me to write this, because i want to forget it all.... but forgeting is hard, and something like this shouldn't be forgoten. it should stay with me forever. forever reminding me of how horrible i was at that time, and that i should never attempt anything like that ever again. the horrible deed that i had committed was cheating. i had cheated on my girlfriend after 9 months of being together. it was a horrible mistake. the whole reason for me cheating was because of the way she treated me. i was treated like a dog... even after all the time i sacrificed so many things for her. she was abusive most of the time, and i hate to admit it... at times i was afraid to go to her house. i slowly, over time, started wondering if she truly loved me or not, and if i loved her still. but that day of cheating, i realized that i still loved her. even through all the things that were bad i still loved her. she had already known what had happened a few hours after, and we were seperated for a few weeks... luckily for me that horrible deed i had done had made us closer somehow. she started going to therapy and it's working. she's alot less violent than she used to be, and she's doing her best to treat me better. i still do everything i can for her, and try my best to make her happy, just like i did before. now our relationship is improving alot, and we also have a child on the way. we love eachother more than we ever had before, and i'm talking to her about my promlems now, unlike before. that was biggest reason it all happened. instead of talking and telling her what was wrong, i kept everything bottled up and later had a meltdown. now i know what i should've done, and i wll never make that mistake ever again. we love eachother, and we will be together forever!

Fruits Basket (furuba)

it's a good manga that i'm reading. so far i'm up to book 9 or 10. i love this manga! it's about a girl named Tohru, who's parents died, and she had to live in the woods in a tent. later the Sohma family took her in as a guest to stay in their home. eventually they accepted her as family, and she now lives there. there's a catch though.... the sohma family has a curse. there are 12 members that have the curse of the zodiac. 12 of them have the spirit of a zodiac animal that resides in them. if they are hugged by the opposite member of sex, or if they become too weak, they turn into their animal zodiac animal. there is also one more person who was supposed to be in the zodiac, but never made it. Kyo the cat. the story revolves around tohru, Kyo the cat, and Yuki the rat. it's basically a love triangle, and eventually Tohru will have to pick who is the one she loves the most.... Yuki, or Kyo which i have a guess who it is, but i'm not saying it just yet. as the story progresses, you watch Tohru bond with all the characters, and you grow a fondness for everyone in the manga. that's all i'm saying for now about the manga. i'm wanting to read more now... lol

Black Cat

i'm reading a good manga called Black Cat. i just started it, so i dont know too much about it, but apparently the main character who is the Black Cat is a famous gunman, who had quit a large organization to become a sweeper. (a bounty hunter) i believe his name was Train... not too sure though. so far that's all i know. but i'm going to continue reading it to find out more. it's quite interesting.

stupid school....

our school is going to make us put our backpacks in school lockers. most people won't have time to get to their lockers, and cause more problems. the cause of it all is a few stupid freshmen bringing illegal things in their backpacks... they got caught, and now this stupid rule was made. everyone in all my classes hates the new backpack in lockers rule, as well as i. what pisses us all off, is as soon as our backpacks go in those lockers, it becomes school property. we all hate that, and we want to keep our backpacks with us.